Today is all we have, but what an effect it has on our future.  One needs to live today in a way that will allow us to shape the future we desire to have.  I used to always put off eating healthy until tomorrow, but as the saying goes tomorrow never comes. Even though it has been over a year and a half since I made my goal, every day there are decisions to be made regarding what I am going to eat and when I am going to exercise.  I think people that lose sight of this once they get to goal end up gaining weight back and have to start all over.  Now of us our perfect and we have all stumbled and fallen.  I really find that I have to focus on the day and not a year from now.  It would be overwhelming to me.  Even now when I look back and realize I started this way of life over 2.5 years ago, it is overwhelming.  Living lean has been more of a struggle for me than I thought.  Sometimes it is two steps forward and one step back.  I often wonder if I am doing ok and then I stop and realize anytime I had lost weight in the passed I had put it back on and them some within a year of starting a diet.   This is my new way of life and sometimes family and friends get tired of it. I just keep telling myself this is about me and my health and this is the way it has to be.

It has been quite awhile since I have written in this journal.  Life has been hectic.  I am still struggling with the same ten pounds but I have come to the conclusion that this is the way it is going to be for me.  I guess I thought the thin fairy would come and sprinke magic dust and say you are thin now you will remain so.  I was prepared to work hard to lose the weight, but I guess I didn't realize that maintaining it would be hard as well.  I am not complaining , I just want people to know that you need to remain focused to remain living your dream of being healthy and fit.

Since I last wrote I went away to Cancun for a week with six other women.... what a blast we had.  Since my return I have been very busy with Destination Imagination.  I am a Regional Challenge Master for this creative competition for children as well as a coach for a high school team.  Between that and working it seems I dont have a spare moment to journal.

 I wanted to let you all know I am well and living the good life.