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February 4, 2002

There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other.
-By Douglas Everett

Today while I was driving, I was thinking of the summer and envisioned myself thin, doing all that I love to do...swim..canoe...boat...jetski....and I realized that it will be a reality, I see myself as making it this time. I know it will happen and I tried to figure out what was different this time,unlike all the other times I tried to become thinner and healthier.
I think it is my attitude, first and foremost this journey is not a race..and secondly I have convinced myself that this is a way of life, a major lifestyle change.
People ask me if I have "cheated" my answer to them is no. I have at times strayed from this new way of life but it was planned and deliberate. I took two weeks off over the Christmas holidays while vacationing at Disney. We returned on a Friday night, and I was right back on track Sat morning and by Monday had lost the weight that I had gained. Another planned day was Thanksgiving, I ate and drank in moderation, but again the day after while everyone was eating hot turkey sandwiches for breakfast, I ate turkey and grapefruit.
We are all human and there will be times, or events that come along that we need to deal with and make decisions about. I have allowed myself to stray on occassion, have planned it way in advance, and have control over my decision. I think it comes right down to I control my food consumption and food no longer nor will it ever control me again....