“No pressure, no diamonds”
This simple quote
certainly struck home today. Life without a struggle does not exist. One must work for what one wants. It has been a real long
time since I wrote in my journal and there is a reason for it. My daughter’s
laptop wasn’t working , so she had mine at college and I had none until hers was repaired. I write my journal on frontpage and then transfer on line, so until I had my own harddrive back, I have
been unable to publish my journal.
I am getting used to the empty nest syndrome. Ed and I are
enjoying our time together. Every weekend seems like a mini vacation. We try
to get away or just spend quality time together on the weekends (yup that means no housework gets done).
Since I have last written I have been to New Orleans and back. My son John,
my best friend, Peggi and I surprised Kara for her birthday by visiting her. Other
than the weather we had a wonderful time. Kara seems to have adjusted well to
college life and that really does please me.
When I got back
from New Orleans I decided to go back on the weight losing phase of the six week
body makeover. That was 19 days ago. I have stayed away from the scale because
I found I was using it to eat more…if I lost weight I would take a free day…vicious cycle. So instead I decided to just live the plan without seeing the scale… so far so good and if everything
goes as planned I will step on the scale Thanksgiving morning.
On Oct 10th
it was three years since I started living this way of life….three years…boy time has flown by!! I still struggle
with making choices although I have to believe I have come a long way since that Oct day in 2001. I am starting to realize that this will never be easy, however it is doable and well worth the effort.
My husband Ed
and I were talking the other night. He mentioned that I should be happy about
where I am…where I have come from. Gaining and losing 10-20 pounds during
maintenance the last two years has really played a toll on me emotionally. As
he pointed out I should look at where I am now and be pleased and thankful for that.
That extreme obesity of three years ago will never happen again.
At time I have
felt the odds were against me lately, having torn a muscle in my shoulder and tearing cartilage in my knee this past summer. I am definitely on the mend, and have started back at the gym, as well as I am going
to physical therapy. I am taking it slow, one day at a time…and sooner
or later I will be at my goal weight once again.
Have a great on
plan day all!